Thursday, January 25, 2007

Update...

Ok, I've added a sex scene. I'm particularly proud of the sound effects, which by the way are NOT mine. *grin* Its wrong on so many levels, but whatever. lol. This is just for fun, since as you'll realize immediately it doesn't fit the story line AT ALL. Anyways, my game is now officially X-rated. And you now have options to choose from! :D One day you may even be able to choose your favourite position...

Also, I've decided to officially put this little project on hold. I've wasted WAY too much time on this already.

You can download the latest version from megauploads.

Gaydar: Latest Version

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Visual Novel


I've been having fun the past couple of days creating a visual novel called "Gaydar" (Cheezy, I know, but bear with me). The objective of my game is to determine which male characters are gay (not all of them are!), and if you're luck, get them in bed. ;) This may well become the first gay english-languaged visual novel ever made by a gay, amateur programmer! lol

Gaydar uses a free software I recently discovered which allows you to create your own interactive games much in the spirit of Japanese dating games. You have to learn the language of course - its much like learning Java or html - but so far I've found the software pretty friendly, powerful and flexible. I've been able to integrate images, sound effects, music and script into what I believe is the beginning of a cohesive story... Eventually, I hope to add alternate story threads, and the option for the reader to make choices along the way. I might even add a "Bonus" (aka: adult) video clip to successful readers/players. :D

You can download the game from megaupload, and play it by unzipping the file and clicking on the "Gaydar" icon.

LATEST VERSION
- updated 1-26-2007
Older Version2 - updated 1-25-2007
Older Version1

Please comment! Your input would be going towards making the game better!

Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Beautiful

Just came back from Green Drinks - that social for educated, middle-classed toadies with green sensibilities. Like always, it was a blast - interesting people, interesting conversations, interesting ideas. But it was on the way back, at the corner of Spadina and Bloor, that I had my most fascinating discussion of all.

She was middle-aged, black-haired and large-eyed, the suggestion of youthful beauty still there. "Have a good night," she said, and immediately I was struck by the absence of desperation. I asked her if she'd like anything, and she said a Double Double would hit the spot. She thanked me for the coffee. It turned out she was Objibway. I mention that I'd noticed the Native community center nearby and the large number of Native Americans in this vicinity. She responded by inviting me to a drum dance at the Center tomorrow night at six. I was then treated to a narration on discrimination, abuse, residential schools, and family break down. At some point in the conversation, I'd crouched down, feeling it ackward and disrespectful to stand while she sat. So when I rose again to go, I belately realized I'd forgotten to ask her name. I introduce myself with a handshake, and she does the same. Her name's Becky.

"Go to the drum dance tomorrow." she said, "You'll get some looks. But don't mind them. We Native Americans open our doors to everyone. I've done my healing. The drums, they're beautiful."

I guess I know what I'm doing tomorrow night.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Fragrance

Pure sin. That was what I thought as he rubbed against me in the dark heavy heat, in that chair-sized closet space. But that was enough for what needed to be done. He'd left his mark on me with his writhing, fragrant body. It was some kind of perfume. Or maybe body oil. Taking the subway back, legs still unsteady, I was careful not to stand too close to anyone. I was afraid that if I did, they'd somehow know. I had tangled with sin. But that was not what preoccupied my mind, afterwards. What unsettles me more than anything else was the realization that I'd smelled that fragrance before... on someone else, in a different time and place. It could not have been mere coincidence. Coincidences aren't found in dark, vibrating rooms full of desperate, aroused people. Coincidences don't linger like a sweet scent on denim jeans or make sudden cries in the middle of the night, leaving wetness behind. There can be only two explanations - either my mind has decieved me into drawing association where non exists, or alternatively and more disturbingly, the man that I thought I knew was not quite what he seemed.

Sunday, January 14, 2007

Youtube


You may have noticed that my utube vids don't work. That's because my youtube account was deleted a couple of days ago. It wasn't entirely unexpected, but I admit I'm still irritated. This began as a kind of experiment to see what the effects of linking from a popular site would be on my blog, but I ended up becoming attached to both places, and investing considerable time of utube as a result.

Traffic has dropped off alot, to about 100 a day according to my more conservative counter. Actually, I'm really surprised I'm getting any traffic at all, considering that I had virtually zero traffic before I linked from utube, and utube was the only significant site where I've posted a link. Hmmm. The mysteries of the web.

Tuesday, January 09, 2007

Night life, night longings, past and present



Its nice to have one's fantasies visualized
. This is a flick about two roommates, one straight, ther other gay, who challenge each other to sleep with "the other".

This film made me smile and remember. Almost a year has past since that night. He's still my best friend. But now he's also my roommate. After coming back from the club, we ended up having a conversation, first about asian cinema and then - of all things - euthenanasia. Cheery subject. Ironically, things have gotten better now that we live together and he is no longer the object of my unrequited desire.

Maybe it was watching this flick which made me go out tonight, looking for a strip club. While re-reading my "Becoming an Escort" entry (for some reason its my most popular non-porn blog entry, going by the number of hits it gets) I'd come across Remmingtons'. I recognized one of the dancers on the site as a porn star. I wasn't expecting too much.

I admit, some of the guys turned me on. One of the cute college dudes who strutted across the strobe-lit dance stage caught my attention. He didn't have the six-pack of the others, but he made up for it with his dance moves. Two hulking guys asked if I wanted to go private, but I wasn't ready and I didn't have time - had to catch the TTC before it closed for the night. One black guy, naked except for a thin pair of black and purple shorts got chatty:

"So, what do you like to do for fun?" he asked.
"For fun?" I echoed.
"Yeah. Do you like sports, television, music, what do you like to do?"
"Watch porn." I replied, only half joking.
"Corn?"
"No. Porn."
"What?"
"Nevermind."

Every nights out has always ended more or less the same way. Waiting for my train at College Station, I saw two guys get into the opposite cars. The doors closed, and I ran up to the car to get a better look. Through the glass doors I saw them embrace. And then they passed me by, leaving me behind.

Ah, well.

"Boyfriends Putting on a Show"

It's here! The doubtlessly (is that a word?) much anticipated uncensored version of 'Boyfriends putting on a show' has been uploaded on megauploads.

You can download it HERE.

Benjamin Bradley and Roman Heart sure are hot. Interestingly, I read in an interview that Roman's actually pursuing some kind of environmental degree, while Benjamin has already graduated from college, in some kind of computer-related field (can't remember exactly, though I think it was graphic design).